emma | xvi | melbourne


lost souls

I drank to fill up an emptiness inside that was left in me and everytime I drank I said something to you I regret and I fucked things up and I’ll never forgive myself and you hated me for drinking, you said id lost myself and that you couldn’t recognize me anymore, but what can I do. Everytime I fill that void of emptiness up it hits full capacity and spills over and I end up as a bundled mess of tears everytime I do. But it’s because I’m hurt and it’s because I can’t take back what I’ve done and the choices I’ve made, and I hate that I’m the person I am and that I’m too much for a lot of people and it frightens me and saddens me and it don’t know how to handle it all.

I’m so stressed about money and how I’m gonna be able to afford everything I owe everyone this week that it’s reduced me to tears and I’m just so frustrated and upset and over whelmed with emotions and I can’t do anything productive right now

I just wanna make people happy but it’s never really just that easy is it. Once people get used to you cheering them up and helping them and giving them a laugh when they need it, they begin to rely and depend on you for it and as much as I’m glad to be helping out, it can be too much at times but I can’t push them away but I also can’t keep balancing mine and everyone else’s problems because I can only hold so much

Anonymous has said: Help doesn't work like that my friend. All the people willing to help you last year will be happy to help you again this year, I guarantee. As of where to start, just say something. Say something to someone, and they will help you get the ball rolling. Until then, just know that all your followers care and are willing to help you and want you to be happy.

Thanks you much love xx

austincarl1le:

do you ever get in one of those moods where you’re like feeling okay but you’re really sad at the same time and you just want to talk to someone and make them hug you but you feel annoying so you kind of just sit there being really sad

my-pocket-universe:

adamnsight:

Have you ever seen brown eyes in the sun? You don’t always notice it at first but you’ll see that ‘brown’ no longer describes them. They melt into golden rays, circling an eclipse. There’s nothing boring about brown eyes, not even when the later hours encroach; they just turn into a sunset of their own. 

I never liked my brown eyes but this is so beautiful and it changed everything